Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Homesick...

Just a little part of my home- a little part of me.


You know, I get a little homesick each day. As I leave the driveway each morning waving to the Fella and honking the horn- as you must do in my family- it's hard. I long to stay. I had years like that in Germany. It was a life of leisure that I didn't notice then.

We always want what we can't have and for me back then it was family, work, school. I dreamed of those things over coffee and afternoon walks and shopping trips into town. There were never any plans or schedules.

Now, my life is full of plans and schedules and I long for days of nothing in particular. I glimpse that on the weekends but it never seems to be enough.

I envy you guys that are at home each day and I suppose you probably envy me a bit too. Do you?

I am looking forward to a week at home- starting on Saturday. I am taking the week off, something I never do. And I can't wait. And I'm making no plans in particular. I am hoping to paint and tidy and rearrange and lounge and read and eat and talk and shop and laugh and listen.

I want to wallow in my home and my days of nothing. Nothing and everything.

And yes, I know I'll be homesick again when it's over, but it will that kind of sick you feel after happily over-indulging on a good meal. A happy full, that's what I always say.

21 comments:

Apron Thrift Girl said...

I worked three years outside in the elements of Washington state. I was miserable yet for some reason still kept doing what I was doing. But every day I wished to be a housewife. I was single and lonely when I made these wishes. Eventually my constant wishing came true and I married, had two lovely babies and now mix up my life with working from home, being a house wife and being a school parent. I am blessed though and grateful every day for this schedule. Still time escapes though and I wonder where the day went. And yes some days I wish that I could go to a place of work and enjoy some banter with co-workers. Enjoy your lovely week off.

Deb said...

I know exactly what you mean. I wish I could stay home too. I will be off next week as well. Enjoy your time at home next week.

Emily said...

I know exactly what you mean. Right now I have a good mix of work and home and I'm thankful for the balance right now. But there have been times I've had to be at the flower shop 6 days a week for months at a timea and I longed for my babies to be small again and to take them walks in their strollers and to just.....be. However, being at home ALL the time leaves me feeling unimportant. I'll be the first to say being a stay-at-home-mom is one of toughest jobs there is, but I often would, and still do sometimes, long to feel "important" and needed. Especially with the girls growing older. The grass is always greener, unfortunately. Enjoy your time off.

Linda said...

Must be a trend b/c I'm staying home next week as well. Got nothing planned & it's going to be Heaven!

Small House said...

Oh...I so understand. I LONG to be home. But no.....it's not my lot.
Enjoy your week off.
Sandra

laurie -magpie ethel said...

Enjoy your week off. There is nothing better than just puttering around the house and the yard. Fluffing, organizing, curling up with tea and a book - make the most of it.

Kim's Treasures said...

I would feel the same as you when I worked! I still don't like leaving home for long. ENJOY your relaxing week!

Unknown said...

What a lovely post...so heart felt and soulful. I needed to read this today.

I just love you...enjoy your down time and relish in it. You deserve it sooooo much...and yes, severely jealous of you.

Old Centennial Farmhouse said...

I worked for years, had kids, worked part time, and after my last one, I stayed home full time to manage my home. I know where you are and what it feels like. I know that longing. I hope your week off is a lazy, loungy, fulfilling and will refuel you.
XOXO
Joni

Theresa said...

Beautiful pictures! I worked for 30 years, up every morning in the car, off to work. I retired 7 years ago and I have thoroughly enjoyed not having that daily appt with traffic. Hopefully you will get to stay home again and enjoy being there! Homesick is OK, makes you happy when you get ther:) Have a blessed day!

Tonia said...

I am home everyday and Never long for anything different... If I had to leave everyday I am afraid I would be very depressed!! We made the decision before we got married that I would stay home and we have stuck to it.. Even though sometimes we think it may be better moneywise if I did work outside the home some.. It always comes back that it really wouldnt..

peggy said...

You have brought back some memories for me this morning..I remember that feeling after all these years when my children were small and I had no choice but to go to work each morning. But we made it...guess it had to be...

Enjoy your time at home and those of you who don't go out, enjoy your enormous blessing.

Kathie Truitt said...

I have always stayed home when I could and returned to the workforce when needed. I, too, love being at home. Enjoy your week off and just relax.

traci said...

Oh kim, i so hope you enjoy every minute of next week. i love not leaving the house. i really could be a hermit. get lots done or nothing done. whatever you want.

Brenda Pruitt said...

I'm sure you've already considered this, Kim. But you could sell your finds (if you could stand to part with any of them, which I would find hard to do!) in a little cottage industry at home. Or, and I LOVE this idea, sell them in your quaint little store! Then you'd never have to leave home at all!
Brenda

Cathy Cobblestone said...

What a great post - even though I work at my shop on our property - I am rarely in my home. I see it all day but I never get to go in 'cause there is always something else to do. So I hear you - a day of nothing and jus' being home - priceless. Enjoy your week off! Cathy

Empty Nest Full Life said...

I know exactly what you are talking about. Now that I am substitute teaching I have a mixture of both. Busy, busy, then the days where there are no plans. It has been pretty busy here, so I too, am looking forward to this coming Thanksgiving week. Have a blessed Thanksgiving. Jackie

Unknown said...

What beautiful pictures...:)

Georgia Girl said...

Yes, I can relate to this post. I hope you enjoy your week! Happy Thanksgiving to you and Fella!

maggie may said...

isn't doing nothing wonderful?? my favorite is listening to football in the background while i lay on the couch, almost asleep. aaahhh

Genny said...

Oh, I totally understand how you feel. I work in Arlington and get up at 4 a.m. every day to commute to work. I long for a little farm to call my own someday and time to putter around in my little old farmhouse with a few chickens and old furniture. The pictures of your farm are so beautiful. Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.